Here I am, A little excited as I feel the most overpowering bit of happiness whilst I sit and reflect the last few weeks of my life. Although I didn’t really set any goals for April (not the usual type anyway) I feel extremely satisfied with my own achievements in all areas of my life. I didn’t want to set any ‘career’ type goals for April as I knew I wouldn’t be able to dedicate much time to them or at least commit to them, I put a lot of pressure on myself for things as it is so it’s best to not set my own bar too high…Believe me when I say it’s been a crazy month it has been C R A Z Y.
Before I start rambling can you believe it’s the beginning of May 2018? I came across this quote recently and it’s something I wanted to share with you all as a little inspiration to go do the things you want to do and stop holding yourself back.
” I have no fear of depths but a great fear of shallow living, but there is the most dangerous risk of all — the risk of spending your life not doing what you want on the bet you can buy yourself the freedom to do it later“ how about that ay?
I’m going to set this months favourites a little differently, I will of course include what I loved but what I’ve experienced, I guess some life lessons.
This new brunch spot in Leigh-on-Sea, Essex is a must no doubt about it, it strongly has a spot on my list of favourite food places. I went with my best friend because who else do you go for brunch with right? Every bit of detail was great, the outdoors looked just as good as the indoors; very smart, fresh and inviting, most importantly to me it was positively busy which is a great sign of a good food experience, My main decision maker when I go for food is determined by how many people there are inside.
Anyway, the great service, quality and quantity of food for the money was extremely worthy. Brunch can be quite pricey but they have certainly created an affordable menu with a lot to choose from including a variety of drinks.
Partly the reason I love April so much is because I’m an April baby, I’ve cherished every birthday and can probably list how I’ve spent every single one since I was about 7, my memory isn’t strong enough to go beyond that. This one I got to spend it in the Gold Coast, ticking a few things off from my travel bucket list.
I experienced dinner with a view from the Sky Point Observatory which was incredible, I couldn’t have imagined it any other way, even-though it was strange not being with my friends and family.
I had the pleasure of meeting the beautiful new-born baby girl, Aluna-Flo – The first baby of my closest friends. I cannot explain how amazing it is to see the people closest to you creating another little life. I’m probably too emotional and sensitive but it brings me so much joy. In my March reflection I spoke about the baby shower and now she’s here, it’s so surreal!
I started travelling of course I’m sure you’re all fully aware of this, I’m not going to talk about it too much as I’m blogging about it all but here are a few pictures from each location so far (Check out my recent travel posts here)
I’ve learnt the importance of many things – I will be doing a separate blog post on this eventually but I’ve loved taking in different surroundings and meeting new people everyday, I have realised there’s a lot more to life than the routine life most people get caught up living.
I really felt the most loved I’ve ever felt, I got to spend so much time with my close friends and family, Quite overwhelming really. Even-though we spent a lot of time over the last few months it was nice to have all of my favourite people together at once.
April Reflection / Motivation
A whirlwind of a month, Full of emotions high and low, confusion, doubt happiness excitement and everything in-between. I had a great month connecting with people physically and online through blogging and my social media. I feel extremely happy and not anxious about anything for the first time in so long.
I did however learn a massive lesson, well I say lesson but I mean I came to a massive realisation that the people who you think are there for you and are supporting you are probably NOT. I’m a little mad and tend not to hold grudges but tbh I’m pissed off… without too much negativity but just a little insight to life as it is, I have given so much time effort love and appreciation to a lot of people over the last few years (these people being friends) and they let me down on my leaving parties, they ‘forgot’ to message me when I left and worse of all didn’t even wish me a happy birthday, I even had people I met over the internet and a couple of months ago messaging me but the whole time I was waiting for these friends to contact me or show a little effort but it never came, I’ve accepted it as a part of growing up. I appreciate those that did make an effort but it goes to show in different circumstances you see the realness behind everything.
I love the outdoors, pretty views and great experiences but I feel like I’ve learnt to take it all in and appreciate everything no matter how big or little it is, I feel like I take things for granted like we all do but just feel much more involved in the world and what I do on a day-to-day life. I mean it’s also part of the parcel growing up, we grow up with a tunnel vision until we unlock different experiences that allow us to think broadly.
You can get lonely at the best of times even with people around you, personally I think that’s fine. You can feel low even when you’re realistically meant to feel high but with that being said. I’ve had this sudden acceptance of myself, I feel so good in my own body and I’ve learnt not to care about anything or anyone ‘irrelevant’ and it really truly has been the most uplifting thing ever.
Goals for May
I have to complete 88 days ‘agricultural work’ in Australia to get my second year visa granted so I would like to secure a job for this and get ready to start it by the end of May.
My blog and social media statistics have dropped massively over the last month or so and I am GUTTED, to be honest I’m literally devastated because it was going so well for me before I left but I guess that’s the way it is… My goal is to keep posting and keep connecting with others as much as possible even with my day ahead time zone. I WILL get back on top.
Reflect back on my event management skill’s, every month I want to work on my eventing knowledge so my mind is refreshed and ready to work when I finally go get my dream job in Sydney. I MUST keep up to date with my ‘eyefuleventsx’ instagram account with the event inspiration and design ideas.
I completely get that this is a post of randomness, I have kind of poured my heart into it but I guess I like for you all to know what I’ve learnt how I feel at the moment, I hope to inspire you with your thoughts and actions and also reassure you that it’s good to be open about things.
What did you learn throughout April? What were your highs and what were your lows? Please leave comments below, let’s build this as a whirlwind post for us all…
I hope you’ve enjoyed the read and I’ll be checking in with you very soon, as of today I’ll be heading to Fraser Island to do a 3 day camping tour so please bare with me and excuse my absence as I will have no contact with the outside world!
All my love, B x
PS. I went to the Market and had a tea leaf reading.. it was possibly the most weird and wonderful experiences ever…However I’m going to keep it a little secret for now and I’ll be posting about my experience in Nossa next week… so keep your eyes peeled for this one! (Has anyone else had a reading done? let me know about it)